the past 7 days were some of the worst in a while

ive been making bad decisions academically, not going to some classes and then feeling like shit for not going

i failed my math exam and dont want to think about it anymore

a friend of 6 years just cut ties without any explanation and im trying to play it as cool as possible, telling myself anything to make it seem like its not a problem, but in reality, its stressing me out a lot

im broke af and dont want to keep asking parents for money

i still think i can be a burden to my friends

i felt anxious for no reason in the middle of the week for almost 2 days straight

and all of these together is just dragging on me and once again October proves itself to always be kinda blegh in my mind.

theres 1 month left in the semester and ive never before felt so much longing for December.